I cant seem to think. I made good food choices today, or rather almost no food choices today. I finally ate some tillapia (sp *fish) and cup of diced tomatoes around 4:30pm. I did 30 minutes of step aerobics... its all I was in the mood for.
I did something out of character for me today though. Stepped out of my comfort zone so to speak. I let my son record me in a dress that I bought on purpose too small for when I lose weight. Its tight on me now. OMGaaaawwwddddd did I look like a horrific cow. I dont know if watching that was a good thing or a bad thing. No, I'm not subjecting any other viewers to it :)))) It makes me feel drastic. It makes me feel disgusted. It makes me feel a lil panicked. I didnt eat all day today until this afternoon and I only did that cuz I thought I had to. I honestly dont want to ever have to eat again.
I dont know what this mood is all about. Maybe its my baby turning 1 in the next week and a half and the realization that I am not having any more children is really sinking in. I need a change. I need me to change.
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As a man, I can offer no wisdom here...but I sympathize with your emotions on this. Hang in there and don't stop the healthy eating.
ReplyDeleteThink of how awesome your before and after videos in the same dress will be.
ReplyDeleteAnd.... YOU HAVE TO EAT! Not eating will have the opposite effect. Your metabolism will slow and go into a survival mode trying to conserve as much as possible. The key is to eat regularly and often, small nutritious meals and finding some way, any way to move your body through out the day.
Sometimes I have to eat because it's time to eat, not because I'm hungry.
It's just a temporary snag you're feeling. It'll pass. Don't punish yourself by not eating ... the boys said it right.
ReplyDeleteThe dress is just a dress. It's not who you are. YOU aren't disgusting.
You'll get where you want to be weight-wise, don't worry.
Just get a plan together and work on it day by day. Don't rush and don't hate on yourself.
Love who you are ... others obviously do! ♡
fitcetera's right, this will pass. you're beautiful - look at that picture of you over there -----> you're unhappy with your weight, and you're here doing something about it. and the end of this period of your life (having children) just means the start of another. could be even better!
ReplyDeleteThanks guys :) I really do think at lest half of this is coming to terms with the fact were not having more babies :( I know seven is a lot, but it was our plan to have as many as we were blessed with. I have been preggers/breastfeeding almost literally since I was 18... I cant imagine my house not being full of the sounds of a baby. I cant imagine... I cannot wait to be a grandma!
ReplyDeleteBefore picts can be a great form of motivation. I have so many of them... all disgusting... but they do their job perfectly! Just use it as inspiration and when you fit into the dress, post both of the picts. It's amazing how you'll feel if you do!
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