Its in there somewhere....

Yeah, thats a chart ... I made it a few days ago and havent gotten around to posting it here. Since then I have gone down another 1.5 lbs... I used the LiveStrong site to track my weight, and my calories. No not so I could go on a calorie restricted diet, no not so I could go on any diet actually, but just to see if what I thought was indeed true... and guess what, it is, or was at least for this past month. Im going to continue to track and see about this next cycle... cuz guess what, Im onto something here, and I have the sneaking suspicion it might just be the key to the whole darn kit-n-kaboodle for me.

I have thought my weight loss was closely linked to my hormones for a while now, in fact all spring since Ive been doing this. I have charted just this last month, and I was right. I have never gained weight without being in a hormonal state... pregnant. I have seven kids and have been pregnant 9 times losing two babies. I gain huge amounts of weight when I am pregnant, lose some after birth and then stall. I never gain more I just stall. Then when my normal cycle kicks in (if I get one since I tend to get preggers back to back) the hormone cyle starts all over again. If I get preggers I gain if I do not get preggers I lose like crazy with little to no effort for the first couple of weeks and then I ovulate and about 2-4 days later all holy hell breaks loose. I usually gain all of the weight I lost back, but not more.... until this time ;)

I noticed something about my eating. Ill call my period the first day of my cycle... on the first day of my cycle my eating shifts... I am hardly hungry, dont like food and what food I do choose to eat is actually healthy, low in fat and calories. I couldnt eat a big meal to save my life and sweets are not appetizing to me. I also am hyper, have a better mood, more social and fun. Then a couple of weeks in I ovulate and about 2-4 days after ovulation I can dramatically feel my mood and body change. I am crabby, I am so very tired I want to eat everything in sight and then some, I want fatty foods and in general anything I can consume. I gain all the weight back that I lost within the two weeks it takes to be back at the beginning of my cycle where it all starts all over again. Until this month.....

So I decided to fight it this month. It was miserable but I did it. I ate what I wanted to, just less of it. I still had all the things I wanted like ice cream and pasta and Mexican but I ate far less of it and walked away. So what did this do? I was able to hold my own for those two weeks. I fluctuated with a 2-4 lb gain but I held my own and low and behold it worked! As you can see from the chart I held steady and DIDNT gain the weight back like always! I lost 14.5 lbs last month which is good if you ask me. I am doing an official weigh in tomorrow but as of today I am down 17 lbs total and still losing. I was 269 on Sun/Mon and as of this morning I was 264.

There was no "exercise" other than moving more which is part of my plan but nothing structured with the exception of two walks early last month. I have been just moving more at all I do, during the time I am feeling like it, and eating less of what ever I want during the time I dont feel like moving if that makes any sense ))))

Im stickin with it... it seems to be workin ;)

Busy, busy and a weigh in ....

I havent been on here much lately. There are a ton of reasons ... hubby got Lymes, now the baby has Lymes and I have been focusing on my photography. Some really great things are happening there as well.

I went to the doc, they are going to do some ultra sounds if my nether regions to see whats going on female wise. My weight has been fluctuating as much as 4 lbs up and down from my last weigh in, I recorded a video here.... I am days if not sooner than that away from my period and the fact that I didnt gain all of this weight back is something short of an F'in miracle!!!!! I hit it hard again today... and by hard I dont mean any more crazy measures, I just mean eating less of what ever the heck I want and going to be moving more. Im DONE with diets and in a couple of my videos I explain why. THEY DONT WORK!!!!! ohhhhh all diets will work if you work them, Im not saying that, Im just sayin unless you learn how to eat less naturally, it can never be maintained because, no one can stay on a diet for ever.... or at least not fat ppl or they wouldnt be fat in the first place cuz they would naturally be eating less.

I feel purdy passionate about his whole thing. I do, and calorie counting and restriction in a formal sense its all crap. Its a tool Ill give you that, but if you dont figure out that sick freakin relationship with food you got going to make you fat to begin with.... your just buyin time. NORMAL ppl dont count calories, or fast, or drink shakes, or starve themselves. Normal ppl eat less and move more than us fattys its just a fact. I hope you guys watch the other videos I put up on why i think this.... I know its working for me... I lost weight and didnt gain it back over these really tough 2 weeks ... that is astounding!

Wishing all of you out there a great extended weekend ... Im gonna go, I have a TON of blog reading to catch up on :)