Black Wednsday

Im sooooooo disappointed in my self. OMGoodness what a crap stick day this has been. How could I be so high yesterday and soooooo very low today?!? I had my awesome weigh in and then I ate like an outta control piglet at an all you can eat hog trough this morning and afternoon. No particular reason that I can think of. It was really just sort of a spiral :(

This morning I wasn't feeling the best again because Lilly the 11 month old was up nearly all night with her teeth bothering her. I am old. Have I really stated this loud enough? I AM OLD... :))) There is a reason why women are most fertile in their 20s ... it's because that's when they can stay awake long enough to care for them :P *nods off while typing...*

So this morning as bushed as I was I didn't jump right to my fitness... I sat. I sat and started out good. Green Tea and yogurt with some almonds at first. Then it was lunch time and it all started falling apart. I hadn't exercised at this point mind you. I fixed left over bow tie pasta with Alfredo sauce (so sinful the way I make it) for my son and I was going to heat up and eat the stuffed Anaheim chilies I had prepared the day before. I put cheese on them. Dont ask me why, but I put a lot of cheese on them. I ate them both after he turned his nose up at his. After the cheese and pasta it was all down hill. I sat and ate a whole huge container of yogurt with almonds. Next up a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch. Then I polished off the rest of my fruit platter... about a cup and a half of mixed melons.

I'm not eating dinner tonight. I have sort of a two fold idea of what went wrong today. Firstly and most importantly I didn't exercise this morning and I sat and watched two whole movies! I dont watch much in terms of TV or movies. Maybe some sort of program every other day if that and all we have is Netflix because of my belief that TV can suck up so very much of ones life and there I sat and there I sucked. By the time I had all of that in my gut I was am feeling sluggish and hungover and crappy. Like a drunk coming off a bad night. So exercising I am not.

Secondly I have found something peculiar about myself. I already knew that pasta makes me go crazy so I have stayed away from it entirely. I didn't know how ever I would feel this way with brown rice. After all isn't it sposed to be healthy? Every time I eat it I fight over eating urges. I'm thinking I'm going to have to nix the brown rice :(

How am I going to course correct? Well a famous man once said "An object at rest remains at rest..." I am no such object. When I wake up tomorrow I am hitting my exercise. It keeps me in motion, my progress in motion and that same smart man said "An object in motion remains in motion..." I got this... I'm round... watch me roll baby... ;)

Have you found any "Healthy" foods that you have to keep away from?

Blood, Sweat and Tears....

Ok first with the blood, ewwww... my feet were hurting really bad when I put on my lil shoes to go for my walk today, but I did it any way. About a 1/2 mile into my walk I began to bleed but youd be proud I didnt miss a beat and I kept right on truckin', all of my steps aerobic :) Yeah!!!!

I know what your thinking "How dumb is she to wear such impractical shoes to work out?" Im not dumb, no really I swear Im not... I just dont have anything else other than heels. And by heels I dont even mean normal heels, mine are all 3 and a 1/4 or higher. This brings me to this pair, and my conundrum. I have no idea what kind of shoes to buy. Dear God did that sentence actually leave my lips? I have never been at a loss for shoes, but folks, I am now!

So I am begging for help from you seasoned work out people. I am seeking your shoe guidance so my poor feet aren't bleeding every time I go walking. I want something supportive, something cute? and something that isn't a car payment. Any ideas?

 Here are my aerobic steps for today on my walk ... yes, I work up a stinking sweat out there being this fat! *You may have noticed in my foot picture, I am prolly the only woman in America that wears fabulous dresses while working out... :))))))) Another oddity about me, I dont own pants, I will never own pants... didn't when I was thin and certainly not when Im fat. This should get interesting when I start my running program... :)

And here were the tears... I went further than I did yesterday! I walked right on past my turn point, foot bleeding and all, and did a smidgen more. When I came back to my driveway and looked up at the huge hill my house sits atop I felt like Rocky pushing hard to get up the last little bit. When I was at the top I felt great... like I had achieved, I dunno, but I achieved.