Holy Heifer Batman!

So I have literally lost my mind in the last week and a half/two weeks. Seriously. I can be good for like a total of 4 hours, what am I a toddler?!? I have gained back a TON! of weight, I mean a ton!!!! Like half of what took me forever to lose. How can that happen? Id like to blame water... I'm sure that's part of it, Ive been bad with the yucky stuff and I feel like a bloated carp, but I know that's not it.

Im on track today... for the moment. I guess when it comes to this I just need to "live in the moment" no past no future just the ever present, present.

As an additional kick on my overly round arse I have come to the very concrete conclusion that my Wii, even with its Wii carpet feet on, is about 6 or 7 lbs off!!!!!! Not in a good way either... like in a bad way, like I'm 6 or 7 lbs HEAVIER than I thought :(((((( Can I just crawl back into bed?

I did this before, I kicked this outta the park why cant I this time? I am trying to think back on that time in my life, what were my driving factors blah, blah... I was alone then. No internet to search for inspiration. No heavy people near me. I did it alone and yet with all of the support I have now I cant seem to get my rear in gear!!!

I just gotta keep at it... anything worth doing takes time.

*As a  side note, I'm thinking of joining a weight loss contest as motivation. The prize is $500.00 and that would sure be nice. What do you guys think about keeping motivated through contests?